Delayed, Not Denied – Benjamin A. Gilman Worldwide Scholarship

My identify is I’yanna, and I’m a 2021-2022 Gilman Alumni Ambassador from Dawn, Florida. I graduated from Florida State College in 2019 with a level in Psychology and a minor in Spanish. As a Gilman Scholar, I studied the Spanish language in San Jose, Costa Rica in 2016.

I’ve all the time thought of myself to be an adventurous particular person. At my core, I’m an explorer. Like many people, although, it’s onerous to discover and journey while you don’t have the monetary means to take action. Throughout my freshman yr of school, I used to be amazed in any respect the alternatives afforded to me as a scholar from a decrease earnings background. Rapidly after beginning at Florida State College (FSU), my purpose was to contain myself in organizations and alternatives that will improve myself culturally and professionally. I figured one of the best avenues for this have been scholar authorities and student-led organizations. My view of what a university expertise may appear like was restricted by my lack of funds. One workshop I attended modified my complete faculty expertise.

As a first-generation faculty scholar, I encountered obstacles that my dad and mom, even with their wealth of data and knowledge, couldn’t assist me with. Fortuitously, I used to be part of FSU’s Heart for Tutorial Retention & Enhancement (CARE) Division. CARE invited the Workplace of Nationwide Fellowships to talk to college students a few examine overseas scholarship catered in direction of college students like us who have been Pell grant-eligible. Earlier than this second, I had by no means thought of the learning overseas as an choice for me as a result of touring in another country appeared to return with bills that I knew I couldn’t afford. At this workshop, I discovered in regards to the parts obligatory for the appliance, heard from previous recipients and discovered of their distinctive experiences from journeys to China, Germany, and Spain. I bear in mind being amazed that college students who didn’t have the funds to journey overseas discovered a solution to profit from their faculty expertise. This was the push I wanted.

At occasions, my monetary burdens made me really feel like a burden. I discovered that having examples of those that have been profitable at reaching this new purpose of mine inspired me to use to the Spanish Immersion program in San Jose hosted by the Conversa Linguistics College. Shedding myself doubt, I met with the ONF consultant and arrange weekly conferences to work on my utility. I labored on my statements earlier than and after class. In between courses I visited the ONF workplace for recommendation. I attempted and failed many occasions. My advisor would inform me “Present, don’t inform” and that idea was tough for me to know, however as soon as I obtained it, I believed I submitted my greatest work. Regardless of the tough time crafting my utility, I used to be pleased with pushing previous my preliminary fears and discovering a solution to be taught abroad.


A few month after submission, I used to be knowledgeable that I used to be not chosen for the award. I used to be crushed. I went by way of my utility once more. What may I’ve missed? I misspelled one thing or made a syntax error. I questioned the onerous work I put into the appliance and if there was something I may have finished in another way. I had accepted the e-mail that I used to be an alternate as affirmation that I’d not have my journey funded by Gilman. A couple of weeks later, I jumped for pleasure as the brand new electronic mail learn “Congratulations!”. Out of three,400 candidates, I used to be considered one of 950 who can be awarded!

In a dialog with my mentor, I advised her the excellent news and the struggles I confronted as much as that time. She mentioned my scholarship award was “delayed, not denied”. She talked about that issues don’t all the time fall into place within the precise approach that we envision, however that didn’t imply that our targets wouldn’t come to cross or that they deserved to be celebrated any much less. This lesson is one I’ve carried with me all through my collegiate {and professional} careers. A “no” as we speak, could possibly be a “sure” tomorrow, and regardless of your obstacles, you need to stay assured in your skill to attain any purpose you got down to accomplish.

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